my public diary

oct. 21, 2025

note: this blogpost is very negative and kind of depressing just in case you aren't cool with that.

i've been so tired lately and can't remember shit. i have to get my college applications in soon. i'm scared of getting rejected.
i think i've been scared of a lot lately. i'm scared of going to school, the people there, teachers getting mad at me, all that. what fucks me up even more is that i'm older than a lot of the people in my grade. why am i scared of them???

i have a lot of homework too, especially after getting sick last week. i'm so deathly afraid of my french speaking test. i suck at the class, i don't have friends in it, and i don't think the teacher likes me very much because for the past three years i've been in her class, i've cried like a little bitch baby way too often. god i feel like crying. i feel miserable and tired all the time. i kind of want to die sometimes but i'm not gonna do it, obviously. because people would get mad at me.

hopefully it gets better soon.

murder on the warp express is getting a rerun in a few days!! i'm excited (8 did you see the new bloodfiend meursault identity? i think he looks awesome. definitely sharding for him.









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