my public diary

sep. 27, 2025

it's been a while. i've been working on college apps and such. my memory's pretty bad so i can't recall much to be honest lol. my birthday's going to be soon. not entirely sure how i feel about that. also i kind of left the second minecraft/discord server. i didn't like how i and my character were being treated. to be honest, it kind of felt like roleplaying in a 13 year old's power fantasy. (didn't help that the majority of the members were like. 13. with a few being under 13 confirmed but they never revealed anything, even when recommended to leave.) we didn't tell the server owner, but i became apart of a new, smaller server with a few of the older members. i'm much happier with them. it feels more like we're friends. i think a lot of us are busy, though (considering we're all high schoolers or older, i think) so we haven't been able to do a lot. i still like chatting about our characters and drawing them, though. last month (or was it early this month? i can't remember) i made a cafe themed lineup of all the characters (that had references) like they were anime characters in a collab or something. i actually had fun with it because i actually liked the characters.

i think in the old server a lot of characters were just super edgy with the lore led by this one kid. the kid might be reading this right now, might not be. but i don't think i'm very scared of admitting it anymore.
it's not that i don't like you, we probably just don't match up pretty well.

funny thing is, i'm still part of the discord server so i see whenever i'm talked about. even though i specifically stated my reason for leaving being that i didn't like the treatment of my character, they continue without changing. oh well. not like i made much of an effort to fix things before i left anyway.

on the irl side of things, i hate school and the people there. human tar pits. i've deduced that after the edgy 13-14 year old phase, it comes back stronger around the middle to end of high school. the amount of times i have to hear people say slurs and disgusting shit is awful. and i can't say anything about it or i'll be "dampening the mood" or "woke" or something. oh, sincerest apologies. i didn't know it would dampen the mood to tell people that what they're saying is hurtful! everyone should just have fun!!!!! (sarcasm)
i guess i'm mostly sad people are like this.

hopefully my next blog post won't take so long haha

i finally got barber outis to uptie 4!! even though she's still the weakest of the bloodfiend units, i still love her. i'd like to make her scissorblades in real life sometime. i bought these giant scissors from spirit halloween a few years ago, which would make a good base.
































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